I've been struggling since I wrote my last piece. I realized that in addition to the two possibilities I already mentioned for my parents' reaction, there is a third. Beyond a defamation suit, or some other destructive action to me or the people I love, my parents could do something destructive to themselves. If that happened, I would have to live the rest of my life being blamed for their actions. That road will not bring me peace. None of these roads will.